The Comeback Song...

It's being awhile folks. A long while.when last we left..I was...well... not good to say the least. Things were...down right shitty. My life was slowly turning into some horrible episode of Mad Men. Minus all the smoking and sex. And that red head with the huge boobs, but that's besides the point. The point is, in the last few months, I have held up all my feelings and thoughts inside and hidden away from the world. Hibernation for the soul. A soul that has been worn down to almost nothing. And that's why I hid. To get some sanity back. I was, to put it bluntly, about to go nuts. Seriously.

So nuts, in fact, that I, in tony soprano fashion, had to get a shrink. And that, sure enough, was step one in the long process of healing. Or waking up, if you want to go with the hibernation metaphor I used earlier. Lucky for me, I got one that helps instead of undermines my problems and tries to get me to stop killing, uh , I mean... stop doing bad things (I've been watch The Sopranos a lot, can you tell?) Along with the doc, I got a job! At the happiest place on earth..-'s smaller cousin, the Disney store no less. I can honestly say it is impossible to be unhappy in such a brightly colored, cartoon-y, child-like place like that. It's a place that is great for a big kid like me to go back to being a big kid again. Something which I was sorely missing. And then on top of all that, I got my cable back! So now I can watch soccer and other pointless television all I want now. Needless to say, I have been putting my life back together and I'm in place where I think I should let the world know how I'm doing. Which is fine.

I'm quite sure I owe all of you an apology for just up and leaving with any statement of my reasons for leaving or telling anyone goodbye, and for that I am truly sorry. But (and this is a huge but) I hope that this note/blog/whatever this will appear as on what service you use will find you in good health and high spirits. and even more so, I hope you take the time to read this, and maybe you'll respond to it. Leave me a message, post a comment, tell me I suck, call me names, tell me you love me, tell me you want my body. (if you do that, I plead with you, do it in private. I don't want any weird questions from my family who are my friends on here) Do whatever you feel. I'll gladly take insults and jabs than silence and stillness.I would just like to hear from those i love and those i have lost contact with through no fault but my own. I am not sure what my status is for school, if I'll come back, if I'll be taken back, or even if I want to go back (all of that is another essay for another time...that time being next week) but I will do my best to keep you all informed.Until then, much love to all and to all...Evening, bitches